My Mantra

I completed my second run today since returning from my achilles fiasco. Everything about running is just so bittersweet for me right now. I love that I'm back and ready to take on the marathong, but this hasn't been the smoothest road.

My bestie texted me yesterday "I hit 20 miles today", and immediately, the little green monster started coming out. No, not my boogers.... ENVY. Of course as her best friend, I was so proud and happy for her. I've always known that she could do it (with EASE I might add), but I was just SOO jealous. She's the type of person, like me, who sets her sights on a goal and just does it. The exception with her (or so it seems) is that this running thing comes a lot easier to her than it does to me. So when I read that text, I couldn't help but feel my heart sink a little bit knowing that I wouldn't be hitting 20 miles before this race.

I ran 5 miles today. By mile 3, my leg was hurting. I felt so slow too. Well, I was slow. The entire time, I just kept repeating in my head:

"I am awesome"
"I love running"
"My leg feels great"


"....am I done yet?" (checks watch)

Getting back into this running thing isn't as happy and go lucky as I thought. I'm sitting here, with my foot in a bucket of ice water just hoping for the best in 15 days.... OMG. 15 days! WTF. That's like...2 weeks. Why do I feel so screwed.

Anyway, at this point, there's no use in being a Debbie Downer. Woosa. Happy thoughts. Happy place.

I will say this though: THE WEATHER IN SACRAMENTO IS ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS AND I COULDN'T HAVE ASKED FOR BETTER RUNNING WEATHER. IT WAS REALLY AWESOME TO SEE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE RUNNING AND BIKING AND GETTING THEIR EXERCISE ON :)